The comeback post was always going to be a tricky one. I didn’t want it to be a review. I didn’t want it to be rant (there will be plenty of time for those). I wanted it to be a new beginning. This blog has been sat here, in this little corner of the internet, occasionally collecting dust, occasionally shiny and sparkly, for a little over three years and at times I have felt so at home here and other times I have felt like I just don’t click with it at all.
Do I consider myself a writer? I guess the answer should be yes, but I don’t feel like I deserve the title when on occasions I commit so little time to it. But then is it fair to deprive myself of it just because life gets in the way sometimes? I guess not.
I figured the best way to get re-motivated and to ‘start again’ as it were, would be to revisit why I started this blog in the first place. I remember it well. I was a new Mum, with no outlet. I’d always enjoyed writing but had never done anything about it. Then all of a sudden I realised there was somewhere I could go that would let me witter on to my heart’s content about anything I felt like and if someone read it and enjoyed it then that was a bonus. But first and foremost, I was doing it for me. Creativity for me.
It’s easy to get overwhelmed by blogging when you look at the quality and the quantity of all of the blogs out there these days. It’s easy to think ‘I will never be that good’. And it can be hard to remind yourself that that doesn’t matter. I’ve been there. In fact that very reason has stopped me from sitting down and creating a post that I may have given quite a bit of thought to. But the fact that I keep on coming back here, makes me realise that I obviously have something to give. Be it something small, something massive. But something that someone somewhere may be interested in.
I’m sure I’m not alone. I’m sure many people have started blogs and then been too apprehensive to continue in the fear that it will just get lost and that it will be a waste of time. But none of that should matter. Because I’ve come to realise that if you’re not doing it for you in the first place, there is no point in doing it for anyone else.
Have you experienced similar feelings towards your blog? Feel free to leave a comment below.